A new prospect for life

As of yesterday I am now an associate for Viridian Energy. I believe this is both a great opportunity for myself financially, something to push myself to be out of my box & something I can do to help the environment. Many of my friends refer to me as the hippie, earthy girl. Yes I may wear hemp sandals, love peace signs and use a re-usable water bottle but there is so much more I can do. So joining Viridian was such a perfect fit for me. I can sell Viridian in CT, NY, MD, PA and soon IL.

Viridian is also so much more than just a company that supplies green energy. They have both local and global initiatives. In the small time I've been a part of the company I've found out they get a good portion of their energy from local generators. They also have trips to different places around the world to improve conditions, such as planting trees in the rainforest. I can't wait to start being more active in the company and be able to include myself in these missions. I've been looking for a way to satisfy my need to locally and globally help out and this is the way. I'm so excited, lol.

If you're interested in becoming a customer or becoming an associate I can help with both. Visit my website or leave me a message if you are interested in Viridian what so ever.

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Angels & Hope

So Friday May 13th I found out I was pregnant. It was hard to believe. I think between Friday & Monday I tested almost ten times to make sure. The lines were always very light and never got darker but I still let myself get hopeful. By the time I tested on Monday the tests reverted back to negative. I was so confused and I wasn't sure what to do. Fortunately I had a few people to talk to on a website I frequent. By the time Tuesday came around I lost what could have been my first child. I discovered I had a Chemical Pregnancy. I still don't know how to feel. Sometimes I feel hopeful knowing I can get pregnant but then on days like today I sat by myself at home I let myself think too much. I tortured myself by looking at baby stuff and ultra-sounds. I know it's silly but I couldn't help it. Tomorrow I am going to the doctors to confirm everything. Hopefully everything is okay and I can start over. So hopefully the little one that I lost will watch over us and keep me positive.

On another note jobs are finally being posted for next year. I sent out an application for one of them. There are 4 more for me to complete. Two are very close to being done, all I have to do is print out somethings, complete the application & burn my e-portfolio. I also have to go to the store and get envelopes & to the post office. Hopefully as we come to summer more jobs will be posted in my area. I am so nervous but excited at the same time.

This is another bittersweet moment for me. My hope is to get pregnant in the next few months. My other hope is to get a job in a school system. Here is where my dilemma is. If I stay at the job I am at I will have my child with me all day. If I get a teaching job I will have to put my child in daycare and I won't be able to be there. But, it will be a serious pay increase and I will also have summers off. I'm just so nervous. I am such a planner and this is a point in my life where I cannot for sure make plans on my future.

Life is wonderful, and I love the way things are going. I am so blessed for what I have. So my mode of thought is hopeful. And I hope I can keep up that frame of mind.

Inspiration.

These days I've been feeling more and more caught up in life and not doing what I WANT to be doing. There are very few things that I'm doing for just myself recently. I need to get myself back into a centered frame of mind. Everyone needs to be a little selfish once in a while or they will lose themselves. All I feel like I've been doing is working, watching tv, eating & sleeping. Where is ME in that? Where is Megan? I am losing myself & I don't like it. I was reading a friends blog and I feel like she is in the same spot. Who are we? Where is that person?

I decided to take a few moments this morning and think about the things that inspire me, the things that make me smile and feel good about who I am. And I realized I'm not doing ANY of those things. I need to look at the world around me and push the pause button for a little bit. I cherish my Saturday's where I am left to myself so sit and think. I used to say I hate thinking, I hate being by myself. But the more caught up in life I get the more I love these times.

Here is a list of things I want to push myself to do more often for myself:

-Go hiking or sit outside alone

-Take more pictures

-Listen to the music I want to listen to

-meditate

-yoga

-sit in silence

-read more books

-sketch

-Inspire MYSELF

-close my eyes and smile

I hope my list inspires you to make a list of your own. Who are you and what do you LOVE? Why aren't you doing these things? Take a few minutes a day to yourself and just listen to who you are.

And if you're looking for some music to backup your inspiration check out Pandora & search Adele...this station is amazing with powerful women and soulful tunes.